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16 more days to my holiday! BANGKOK... woohoos. WELL , some worries are unavoidable. be it in a small problems or big problems they matter to me. SO I GUESS i really have to save money in future whenever i have extra to save, to help on rainy days.It really does helps alot.. now i know it's importance =( I hate the feeling to go around asking for ppl to lend money. Not good when money comes in between friendship. ZZZZ sad to say so. BUT IM SURE I CAN OVERCOME THIS ORDEAL, I CONTROL MY OWN LIFE ANYWAY. HAHA! There's always suffering to take before u can taste the sweetness in life. NO MORE online guys in my life also. totally waste of my time i guess, morever i must be pretty sure what are they after for all this while? DON'T I? MIGHT AS WELL use my free time and convert them into cash. which means more savings.LOLS. how many more years can i waste.? im getting on my ages. (Just Joking) i'm speaking what i have in my mind now. sounded crappy but like it or not? this is what i always do. tend to have mood swings , those who know me. ignore me when i'm having this kind of mood swings. But overall im still someone fun to be with, cheerful right? deep down inside, i also don't know what kind of person am i? am i living with a mask on, or is it the real me right now standing in front of everyone? trust me.. no one knows the truth =) i came from a dramatic background which u see in movies. kinda of coincidence, never imagined i was living a life like that under a secret uncovered .. only to realise the truth when i was 14? but not a cruel fact to let me know the truth anyway, in fact was more touched by the love they had given me even though i was not..... the more i should live my life to the fullest to repay them . what they had done for me these years. IF U LET ME TURN BACK TIME, i would choose to study hard. i know it's useless to say history stuffs . LIFE IS A MYSTERY , like what humans said" yesterday is a history,today is a gift and tomorrow is a mystery" pretty blessed we are to be able to idle around and not to worry about our 3 meals, our lodging and clothings. BUT think of other people all around the corner of the world many of them are busy with their lifes like the "ants" we call them . main factor they worry. FOOD. CLOTHING and LODGING . some even worry will they live till tomorrow? they are like goldfishes on the land GASPING for air and in need of water to make their life... WHAT worries do we have? i hope to get a LV bag? a GUCCI bag? a COACH wallet? thats not a worry though. like i say... different humans live different kinds of life. we do have HELL and HEAVEN in earth. although we all are living on the same land, breathing in the same air, consuming the same water.
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